Have you ever heard the same thing said to you over and over again, maybe a thousand times, and the thousand and first time you hear it, it’s an epiphany? Not saying I saw God or anything, but I get the feeling that has happened to me tonight.
I looked up the actual definition of the word epiphany in my Merriam-Webster dictionary app just to be sure my thought is in alignment with what I’m thinking. The definition of the word, as far as what it means to me at the moment, is as follows:
Epiphany a (1) : a usually sudden manifestation or perception or the essential nature or meaning of something
(2) : an intuitive grasp of reality through something (such as an event) usually simple and striking
(3) : an illuminating discovery, realization, or disclosure
b : a revealing scene or moment
The first two parts of the dictionary definition refer to the honoring or the actual appearance of a divine being, or to say it with fewer words, “seeing God”. Not to buck religion for any reason, I’m simply trying to be analytical, and besides, I didn’t witness any visions of any kind. Not this time.
The rest of the definition is basically saying the same thing, you have encountered something that caused significant thoughts to occur. My quick and dirty version anyway.
I was at my friend’s bar tonight, as I have been almost every night during my stay in Connecticut. Keeping the names anonymous, I was having conversation from a friend I’ve gotten to know well while spending my time there working and/or socializing.
After telling my friend about my travels, and how I write blog posts based on experiences I have while traveling, she told me I’ve done well experiencing what I have in life, to summarize. In my last post, I mentioned how I’m never sure if I’ve been a failure or a success as I travel from place to place and end up going somewhere else due to what feels like a failure that causes me to move on to another destination.
Something about hearing that said tonight, which I’ve heard from other people in one form or another (not for 1001 times just to clarify. I don’t think I’m quite that hard headed) made me realize that I truly have had many positive experiences in life. It’s very easy to focus on the negative, to the point of ruling out the positive. Something about being here has finally gotten it into my skull that I have experienced many adventures, and there is no other way to look at that other than in a positive light. My experiences have caused me to grow internally, not just see new places that I leave to see another place.
Interestingly enough, another friend of mine recently turned me onto the concept of astrocartography. I’m shocked to say, this one wasn’t in my dictionary app. I had to look it up on Wikipedia. It’s a complicated definition, so I’ll try to make it simple. Astrocartography is a type of astrology that uses a map of where the planets were in relation to the Earth at the time of a person’s birth. The energies of the different planets determine different things about how the locations along those planetary pathways can affect your success in life, for one example.
Again, interestingly enough, one of those significant locations for me is right here in Connecticut. I don’t remember the planet off hand, but I do remember the site, www.astro.com, saying this is the area that could transform my life if I can get past old belief systems. I wasn’t sure exactly what that meant when I first came here and found this information out, but now I’m seeing it happen.
As I mentioned before, I always tended to think more about the negative thoughts related to leaving a location during my travels than the actual experience I had when I was there, even though I have regarded those experiences as very good times in my life. Something about tonight has caused me to bring it all full circle, and realize that I have to keep my experiences going for as long as I can. Realizing the problem and breaking the pattern is the first step to moving the energy vibration upward. Sorry if I’m getting too “out there”, just have to say, and write, what I’m realizing at the moment.
When I do have to move on from here, which seems to be coming soon, I will miss the bar, meaning I’ll miss the people that work and hang out there. I’m not exactly inclined to deal with winter here coming up, and I’ve had feelings of needing to move on, most likely to gather more experience now that I seem to be getting a clearer vision of how to make my life work in more of a positive way. So this chapter needs to be closed out like a good movie, where the good guys win.