I’ve been through some interesting but turbulent times lately. According to my horoscope app, I’m dealing with stressful times that are for the purpose of guiding me in a new direction.

I was out the other night, and came to realize I am not a status quo, or average, type of individual, but trying to live life as I am is leading to unhappiness in the way I do live my life. I have an underlying “wild side” that makes life boring for me if I’m just living the same vanilla kind of life as the average individual.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to slam on any one particular way in which people live their lives. Thinking about this makes me wish I could just live a mediocre, status quo life and just be happy about it. But I can’t. I’ve tried. It’s not working.

Women I’ve met typically ask me if I’ve ever been married. I’ll tell them no, and then some of them have asked me, “What happened?” Well, obviously, nothing did that resulted in marriage. The answer I want to give so badly is, “Because I have intelligence”, but I realize, being a guy for as long as I have, that would terminate any and all chances of any dating prospects.

I’ve been in a few relationships that lasted for a few years, which was long enough to get bored with every one of them. Not only do I bore easily, I crave adventure. After having not so great luck in the dating department lately, it has made me wonder, am I damaged goods? Do I just hate the status quo, family, house, white picket fence, lifestyle so much that I just don’t fit into any way the game works any more, or maybe never did in the first place?

It’s time to think and live as the warrior again. I’m sure I’ve mentioned the warrior discipline at some time or another while writing this blog, but all that means is to accept the way life is and systematically look for way to overcome your obstacles. So we’ll see where the path is taking me next. Until then, just figuring out how to appease my wild side.