I’m staying with family after I just moved out of Atlanta, It’s been great to visit with my nephews and sister and brother in law, and at the same time I feel a real sluggishness from the slow, gradual depression I’ve been in over losing my job that was going along beautifully just before I was let go due to a business reorganization.

I’ve been having conversations with friends of mine about having my life uprooted several times now over the years thanks to losing my job at one time or another. For all those companies out there that are trying to round up all of their employees after they’ve been working from home for over a year now, I’d like for you take into account people like myself. I’ve been an IT professional for twenty years. The only thing certain about IT work is the instability, or at least that’s been my situation. I’ve literally moved from state to state for years now thanks to losing a job and having to relocate time and time again, and it’s almost never had anything to do with me directly. It’s usually the result of management deciding they need to let people go, and that’s usually been the result of piss poor management decisions. In case anyone hasn’t stopped to think about it, if I’m working a remote job, I’m not dependent on a location, which means maybe, just maybe, I could, I don’t know, maybe have a life?

Of course, there are two sides to every coin. On one side of that coin, it can be said I’ve been able to experience life in the world from many different places, which has led to experiences I wouldn’t have sitting in the same residence for years. The other side of that coin, I’ve never even been able to even think about anything like having a family, or friends that I can get to know without having to jump ship every few years if not sooner.

I used to love heading off to the next adventure, but as I get older, I’m starting to wonder where I’m going to be able to have some sort of a home. At the same time, I still get bored easily, and after being somewhere for a while, I want to move on and do something different. The volatility of my life has been an adventure, but other times feels like more of a curse.

In the background of all that’s going on at the moment, I keep remembering that song on The Life of Brian, Always Look on the Bright Side of Life. As difficult as life can be, you have to somehow keep it in mind that life is not all bad. There are bad times, but there are also good times. When I hit my severe depression levels, as I have been lately, something pulls me out of it before I’m ready to just end it all. I get the feeling this is going to be a long drawn out difficult time for me, but it has to lead to something greater.